Busy-ness

I noticed that I used to be bored, a lot. So, I put it out to the universe that I didn't want to be bored anymore.

Between learning my new position, both at work and in the social experiment of life, being divorced and single again, I have been up to the busy-ness of life... a busy little bee, if you will.

Something I have learned, when life is busy - it's busy. Currently, I'm trying to keep up with my reading for my online class I'm in, my work, two online trainings for my j-o-b, my work-out schedule (you know, making it to the gym twice a week - ug, not enough - but better than none), my social schedule (dating, friends, etc.) and my family. It's enough to make someone just want to go to bed and not come out until after the holidays.

So, while I know we don't have more than we can handle, I can't help but feel a little stretched lately. Here is my apology to all - sorry if I can't make a lot of time for you. Sorry if I snap because I'm tired from reading late the night before, or I'm stressed out due to an upcoming paper or test.

Something I need to remember is to make time for me. And I can't put that off until mid-December when this class and the other two online classes I'm working on for work are done. I need to remember and figure out how to take time for myself. How can someone that is a care-giver to all be a care-giver to herself? It's kind of humbling to realize that no one can or will take care of you as well as you can. I believe this is the lesson I need to learn currently, while doing all this other learning. And how to really love myself, and realize what a kick-ass person I am when I am able to take care of me and then others.

Here is to self-care, love and gratitude for the busy-ness.

Like taking a bullet...

I was asked to fill out one of those silly surveys on Facebook the other day... and I was going along just fine until I saw the last question.

HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?

Like taking a bullet. It's coming up on a year that my divorce was finalized. And I thought about this question. Yes, I met my "was-been" on CraigList strictly platonic, and yes, we were together just about three and a half years, married almost two of those. And I could have answered with that.

But then I really thought about it. I have many significant people in my life - day to day, via actual in person interaction, through Facebook, through text messages. I could go through and name all of them, but I know I would be missing someone. Some are very prevalent, daily, and they are the first I think to share my thoughts, good day or bad day, with. I've met you all through school, through work, via being born into the same family, through knit groups, through second jobs or volunteer work, at speed-dating (even though I met no men that night); some of my spouses/significant others are there for a few months, some are there for years - I've had a few of you since kindergarten; You see, I have many significant others – just a single girl filling the boxes with many, instead of just one. Which feels better to me, in the long run. One person shouldn't have to be your everything. Nor should you expect that of them.